Okay, wow. I just watched the 15-minute Miracle video on Joe Vitale's Attract Miracles Community, and it really resonated with me. I think this might be what I've been missing.

I, and I alone, am *completely* responsible for EVERYTHING in my life. I create my own reality, so if there's something in my reality that I dislike, or that bothers me, or that contributes to my unhappiness, it's simply and solely because I CREATED IT.

Wow.

The thought that this could (or, rather, does) extend to the people around me is, quite simply, mind-boggling. The fact that my children have no motivation, no organizational skills - that's all me. The fact that my husband is anti-social - that's all me. The fact that my boyfriend is an alcoholic who thinks he can control his drinking - that's all me.

It makes a great deal of sense, though, at the same time. It also helps me figure out how I can dissolve the internal, unconscious blocks I have to my success. Blocks that keep me from doing things I actually WANT to do, like:
1) Do my 7th Path daily
2) Do my IM daily
3) Exercise regularly
4) Live in a clean house
5) Have a successful business
6) Practice my cello regularly

When I can successfully release those blocks, I will find the motivation to do whatever it takes to make those things happen - EASILY and NATURALLY!

I'm Sorry. Please Forgive Me. Thank You. I Love You.

Wow